Not Giving In

Such a negative vibe It sopped by and looked at me straight in the eyes A feeling of fear and I no longer felt wise I’ll lose myself if I don’t fight, trapped in fright I fight it with all my might I must find the light … Such a negative vibe It faced me and it wasn’t afraid Face to face as I smiled, and I prayed It thinks it is stronger, it thinks I’ll lose But that’s not how I was made It wants to enter and cause mental abuse … Such a negative vibe But I’m not … Continue reading Not Giving In

Drowning

Slipping, sipping, flipping out Sitting, weeping, almost quitting At that moment it felt like I was never winning Admitting to my pain, committing to heal Transmitting bad energy to those who didn’t deserve it Chilling, willing, forbidding bad energy to enter my system Splitting my good energy from my bad energy, the bad energy was so thrilling My thoughts spinning, as I was missing my peace of mind Digging deep into my thoughts to find happiness Tricking my body so it thinks I’m alright My pain triggering bad thoughts Almost drowning, swimming until I feel like I’m completely living Continue reading Drowning

Fix me

Hold my hands, I’ve been hurt With you I try to flirt But it just brings up past experiences, just a whole bunch of dirt It makes me think about all the times they tried to get under my skirt But that’s not the worst part, my patience is running short All I ever wanted was love, but all they did was play with my heart And even like that I never gave up, torn but hoping for a new start Love me entirely, part by part, admire my beauty like fine art Hold my hands, I need your support … Continue reading Fix me

Speak your mind

I’m sick and tired of being misunderstood You call me stubborn; I just know what I want, there’s a difference You like to hold in, I speak my mind, it’s a matter of preference You think I’m not nice because I speak my mind or maybe you call me emotional The way you think, to me, it’s so irrational I’m not sure what you think about your mind, but my thoughts are valuable They can become either extremely tragical or extremely magical That’s why my mind I won’t let you shut I’m not saying that what I’m saying is the … Continue reading Speak your mind

Authentic Epidemic

Pathogenic vibe, you’re like a disease So much pain you carved in my heart I patched it up, but I sometimes feel the pain You tried to eat me internal, hurt me and tell me it was all in my head I knew the problem wasn’t me, it was energetic I was always skeptic of your eccentric personality, maybe it’s genetic Unfortunately, your energy is magnetic It’s unfortunate because it’s domestic You were never authentic You insulted my academic because you felt pathetic, synthetic You thought you were majestic You thought you could shut me, but I am poetic I … Continue reading Authentic Epidemic

Reflection before Infection (Depression)

My mind is brightened And then it gets darkened by an invasion All these random thoughts came without an invitation, they called themselves depression They begin to move my energy in a different direction Completely ignoring my suggestions Then it begins to enjoy the rejections, all the aggression I start obsessing on my imperfections Completely ignoring my precious connection to my state of mind to Heaven What once was special it’s now a deception My mind is in a deep detention concentration It’s a challenge to hunt for the corrections It takes a huge amount of attention on reflection You … Continue reading Reflection before Infection (Depression)

Perspective

It’s a matter of perspective if you don’t agree you can at least respect it that doesn’t mean you have to accept it it doesn’t even have to affect you Some people say cruel words and then they regret it their pride wont let them apologize, so they forget it then they get upset when you protest it It’s a matter of mindset How happy are you and how depressed how often do you get upset We want to believe but we always suspect Are you taking care of yourself or do you appear unkempt Can you always blame us? … Continue reading Perspective