It’s not you…it’s them

How can someone tell you they love you and not mean it? Someone with a pure heart would never do something so cruel You deserve better You think it’s your fault and you take different measures It’s not you… it’s their manipulative selves Telling you they love you to get in your pants Telling you they love you just for a good time You deserve better Don’t settle, don’t fall under pressure Manipulating is their gift, their Gods at it You deserve better altogether You don’t need this pain to last forever It’s not you…it’s them… You were raised from … Continue reading It’s not you…it’s them

I don’t know

In slow motion I drink your love potion It brings up so many emotions … To love you or to only observe you To love you or only trust you? There is no such thing To love you forever or only during spring? To love you at all. What if it stings? … If I don’t try…I’ll never know To go…or go with the flow To hide it from you…Or let it show I keep thinking about it and I just don’t know Continue reading I don’t know

Serenity

Peace, serenity… to clear my mind and stay away from the enemy Focusing all my energy on them was leaving me breathlessly The worst part is they never felt any empathy I was focused on them and they were also just focused on themselves … Peace, clarity…to focus most of my energy on myself instead of them The way they were living their life, it was so dreadfully In them I tried to find therapy, but they’re mostly focused on jealousy They were never close to becoming my remedy, I walked away, my heart feeling heavily I wanted to help … Continue reading Serenity

Sleep Paralysis

Sleep paralysis, I cannot move Stuck in analysis, to fight or remain calm My mind is alarmed, it’s wide awake while my body is asleep Hearing footsteps around me, getting closer to my body I cannot move, the paralysis I cannot remove Dark shadows surround me, and I cannot move To enjoy the experience or cry in terror, I cannot choose “Snap out of it, it’s just a dream!”, or is it? A horrific alignment, when my mind and body cannot come to an agreement It feels like they get a signal, the demons They say “it’s all in your … Continue reading Sleep Paralysis

Miraculous Moments

Miraculous moments finally starting to happen I was stuck in a misfortune for a really long time I always proceeded with caution But sometimes we get extreme pain without a warning Some days it feels like torture, but I learned to tackle it portion by portion My patience would shorten, some days I had really sad mornings I thought I was alone, but I noticed the pain was quite common I always recover from pain, but the experiences are never forgotten My positive thoughts played a huge role, my thoughts are extremely important Got so close to my positive thoughts, … Continue reading Miraculous Moments

Next Step

I don’t want to overstep I don’t want to be here if I’m not wanted here… Let me know, I could easily disappear You keep toying with my mind Tell me how you really feel… Just for a slight second be real You swore that you would love me But moments with you and I never feel wanted I want to sit on your lap, you’re too busy with your cigar Your vibe was a vibe I once admired I guess your feelings for me expired Who knew…that there was limit to love me? Who knew… that you once loved … Continue reading Next Step

Fear

The enemy is near It has caused me so many tears Year after year, I’ve struggle to fight it It has stopped my mind so many times from thinking clear It has blinded my vision from seeing clear It weakens my energy, my vibe, my immune system It takes complete control until I’ve become a victim It goes as far as clouding my wisdom It literally traps me in my own kingdom The enemy is near, the enemy is fear Faith will overpower it A strong willpower will overpower it A controlled, meditative mind will overpower it I have control … Continue reading Fear

Small Talk

Small talk I miss our long walks I stare at the ashes that fall from your cigarette You’re here with me, but then again not I’m conversing with your silhouette … Cold sweat, mixed with emotions Your vibe now feels like a threat I try to forget, but now I’m full of regrets … Upset as I sit alone watching the sunset I wish we could go back to when we first met Erase you from my memories and completely forget Continue reading Small Talk