I’m still hurting from the things I thought were in the past.
They still creep up on me.
From time to time I’m deep in my thoughts.
Fighting events that I can’t rewind.
I can’t change the things I’ve done wrong.
Maybe that’s where I’m stuck.
Maybe I need to understand that those mistakes are gone.
It’s hard sometimes to take it all in.
The mistakes are ingraved in who I am.
I don’t want to revisit those times.
That’s where they linger.
Between wanting to move on and wanting the past to be gone.
The hurt is mine.
Maybe it’s because I have to do the time for my “crimes”.